i just need to get this out of my system. flush. flush. flush!!!!!!!!

what's wrong with being "friends" with an ex? well, it isn't really WRONG but it sure is weird. awkward. maybe, but not completely, impossible. conversations, or the closest you can get to one, are filled with short stops, seemingly friendly and sincere questions of how they've been, blah, blah, blah. but at the end of it all, it just feels like an eternally uncertain state of mind. do i make sense? i think i just want to say that it's hard to be friends with someone who you were never really friends with before the ex-relationship. why am i sweating about it? coz an ex just added me on ym and our exchange of messages is clearly weirdness magnified to me and why the hell am i blogging about this? maybe i'm bothered. and i don't know why. i have a feeling i don't really wanna find out..