would you like fries with that?

the moment i turned on my pc i had to crank up the music- to divert my mind from all the frustration my current dilemma is bringing me! it is current... though the topic has been hovering inside my brain for a couple of months now. (for those who know me well, you know what i'm talking about) the concept has been boiled, braised, grilled to charcoal and still, i have not made up my mind to serve this ugly lunch menu. yes, i am talking about my career. to be or not to be. why is this life so full of options? why can't it be just like in the "choose your own adventure" book, where you can go back to the start page if you reach a dead end?

*i wish i had a "secret" blog (like some people i know) where i can just vent and not feel an ounce of fear that somewhere somehow a friend of a friend will find out about this blog and ruin my evil plans...
well... it's not exactly evil... but it sounds more mysterious that way :)

i finally found the time to go see the devil wears prada. the plot wasn't too complicated, the usual feel good chik flick, but it hit a very familiar nerve- it talked about options. no one can really force us what to do or who to be (unless you're in some country like afghanistan) without our consent. i'm not one of those people who usually "go with the flow" of things. i like making decisions, weighing my options, seeing things in black or white. yet, i realized this time, i'm too afraid of making a mistake and it's keeping me from moving forward.

i hate this.

i am so hating myself right now for being chicken shit.